What Early Sobriety Feels Like. Starting Over in Recovery.

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Let’s be honest; early recovery can be brutal. This is just a fact and if you haven’t discovered it already, then you probably will if you’re new to sobriety or trying to get sober.

I could try to convince you that the early stage of recovery is all about rainbows, butterflies and unicorns and that you’re going to feel instantly amazing every single day as if new sobriety is one giant, continuous orgasm. But that would be a lie and my intention is to be as straightforward and honest as I can. Often, early sobriety is about being pounded day and night by a storm of painful feelings and emotions. This is just the reality of what we have to face in order to get clean and stay clean.

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At first, new sobriety can be a wonderful experience in many ways. Just the clarity of mind that occurs from not drinking or using can feel like a miracle. But usually, after a few days or weeks, we start to experience those damn things called “feelings” which can overwhelm us. Some of the feelings are great. Some of the feelings truly suck. Sometimes they’re pleasant. Sometimes they’re painful. But the feelings start to come fast and furious and can occasionally scare people who are new to recovery.

When you think about it, we’ve spent years (in most cases) trying to hide from, or suppress, our feelings with booze and drugs. For whatever reason, most addicts hate feeling much of anything other than feeling high and euphoric. For whatever reason, we try to avoid any discomfort in our lives; at some point, we discovered that alcohol and dope are the easiest and fastest ways to escape a wide range of feelings and emotions. We prefer numbness to just about everything else. But once you take away those numbing agents, we start to experience a flood of mental, emotional and even physical feelings that we haven’t felt in years, sometimes decades.

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I remember how incredibly uncomfortable I felt in the world when I first got sober. I didn’t know how to act, talk, react, engage or socialize in any way, shape or form. In many ways, I had to restart my entire life. I had to be reborn into the world of adult socialization and conversation. It was an incredibly awkward time for me, coupled with the fact that I’m naturally shy and struggle with social anxiety. Thankfully, I was living in Los Angles at the time and had many 12-Step meetings to go to every day of the week. Slowly I began surrounding myself with recovering addicts, which gave me an opportunity to relearn how to communicate and interact with other adults without having to rely on cocktails to get me through social situations.

But even worse than the social anxiety was the physical pain and discomfort I experienced in early recovery. My body was trashed from all the substance abuse I had forced upon it for many years. I had lived on a steady diet of alcohol, drugs and cigarettes for decades, and my body was desperate to repair itself.

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In those early days, I could hardly sleep at all and would often break out in a cold sweat as my body worked to squeeze out all the toxins that had pooled in every pore of my body. I would sweat so much at night that I had to keep buying new pillowcases to replace the ones that were stained permanently yellow (sexy, I know). My skin was blotchy and dry, which made me feel more self-conscious than normal (which is saying a lot). I often felt my heart racing so fast it felt like it might explode. I suffered from extreme levels of anxiety and paranoia and became deeply depressed. I frequently had bad headaches and worst of all; my stomach was in constant agony. I had horrible pain and discomfort in my belly morning, noon and night. There were times that it became almost unbearable. Of course, being a hypochondriac at the time, I convinced myself that I had stomach cancer and that I would die soon (a quick shout-out to my first sponsor, Paul C, for patiently putting up with all my complaining, whining and panic attacks in those early days. You’re an angel, brother.).

Yet somehow I managed to stay sober one day at a time, for which I am forever grateful.

After a few months, I began to feel a little better but I still never felt great. So about six months into my recovery I made the decision to change the way I felt by learning everything I could about what I had done to my health and how I could try to repair some of the lingering damage that still plagued me.


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*Health Tip: One of the best ways to improve your health is by getting at least eight hours of sleep every night. This might be difficult at first, so take a few naps throughout the day.  

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